ingIn the light of black matter lives and bar lives matter and black lives matter and trans people matters matter which are all very legitimate since they react to some oppression I would like to add my life to the matter queue since there is a silent oppression by a loud minority (or rather majority?) who would not shut up and have to keep on babbling about how much they matter. What I mean is this 'I me mine' - I am of a uniquer matter' ... more than you - messages all around of us who do not think were born better or more than others but travel or still keep a radio or a PC. Beyond the known bias of all performers who think they are better lovers, drivers, leaders, more popular etc aka remembering the my and good, there is a perceived norm of showing off the gloryest origins. Can every pedigree be the best in the competition of the origins or is this just a silly tradition based on lies or hearsay? The mother human nature messes: 1 in 21 fathers are unknowingly caring for someone else's DNA-ed child.
I mean, there seems to be too many people, in these competitive times clinging to origins hearsay. The chosen people, the better clan, best god, purest family. If anyone digs deep enough we should all find a x-th century writer.... Would you then suddenly start writing since it is obviously in your genes? Or do you dig to justify your vices by some historical claim? If I find out my grand grand was a rich man do I know where my penchant for big rooms comes from? If he were a communist should I join the communist party or rather fight against the church property restitutions? It is the same shit with the horoscopes. They make you think you are a good shooter for the week. You were not enough, now you are. What a bs. If you look for patterns, you will find them. In the US all know where they came from and call themselves Irish, Italian, Jewish or Japanese or I do not know what... even if their grand grand grands were born in the US. They know their imaginary origins and so they know why they are reckless, stingy, happy, sad, drinking, touchy, sporty, bossy, musical, Then they travel ´home´ and feel this magic of ancestral connection they so much expected. Uuu hugs are cheaper than air tickets. I, who do not care about my grand...grand sins and fortunes, feel sometimes oppressed. There are nudges to do the silly research to find mine xy sources and origins and then follow all the bullshit of own design estimation aka nature first (no nurture) bs self portrait. I do not say that the nature or the family karma or the family culture do not matter, I just say all the past had its influence but we can not know what caused what, what part did the nurture played. A big one. One logically chooses not to bother. 'Bullies around me matter' bother me because one can tell they adore their pedigree of the big family abroad or in the past with a place in heaven. I have a very small family now with no imaginary friends and that is all that should matter since it brings clarity into thoughts and acts. The granny has not to claimed anything from the German state for subjecting my granddad to the totaleinsatz [slavery] work. And please do not come with apologies or money if you are a German or I will bitch-smack you with a smelly fish. All are born thanks to all the history before. If our ancestors had no mishaps [as the totaleinsatz] our mums egg would not meet the particularly lucky sperm of our dad´s in this immaculate time called 9 months b4 birthday. So my thanks goes also to all the unknown circumstances like fucking and slaughtering of the Neanderthal people. And also to the dogs who helped keep them warm and fed. Also to the volcanoes that poisoned the air in all the aeons. Thanks to Hun, Lenin or Churchill too. They have statues and they caused deaths to the innocent.. I won´t mind if their statues disembellish some places. These statues are witnesses and symbols of 'my bro has a bigger dick' brain damage bullying I am talking here about. I may be enraged to see how the Communist party members families got rich. I was already alive and witnessed how awful [cruel pigs] and opportunistic beings most of them, the well positioned party members, were. After the 1989 putsch they were not punished nor stripped of the loot and they managed to keep and even snatch the properties of the state, creating an aristocracy class that is now able to buy the votes and reelect themselves using old boys partisan democracy with barriers to enter. Now we have the agent Buresh leading the country through his personal history of working ethics hysteria as his sins [conflicts of interests] justification. The laws let them and now they write them. Anyhow, well, too much shit, whatever. I write this post not because of this wickedness but because there is this general cultural oppression of us who would or can not care to use our family origins as reasons or personal fetishes. The proud cultures abuse the ancient records (we are born better, all know this and here, this is our god given right to your land or property and btw my bro has a bigger shtick than you) and memories to bully others. People should not use the history which is beyond the memories of the people they know, else there is an oppression. There was a crime at the beginning as well as at the end of these story tools /(stools><?) At the beginning, there often was a powerful leader who had some luck in his genes promotion and who wanted to clear his name of the crimes that started his fortune. ..so he manipulated the story by omitting the bad light and ordered the family and followers to keep his history alive. That is how and why many records were done. All this glory, wrongdoings, we hate this... attitudes or vendettas should not matter after 5 generations also because they are not real. They are puzzling the present, which is already too complex, changing in an unprecedented rate. (the temperatures, the technology, killing of species and pollution) The challenges of now are enough, they do not need to be glamorise with paranoia (if you look for patterns, artefacts or explanations, you will find them) from distant past or future. When I was 13 or 14 I heard a funny ¨Student Hadgi Ben¨ song by Brno's Barel Rock band. The song mocked an Arab vet student for being rich, socially inept and not diligent... its text read ''we do not mind them here at all, we love them a lot' meaning we really do not. I recall feeling there was some violence in this funny nudge to join us, the better ones [who are somewhere between the racist mob and students suffering their inept, rich colleagues bad habits]. Should I mock or hate these rich foreign show offs? Or Russians or Germans for what their grandfathers did to mine? I surely may. Perhaps. I accept those who get touchy when their family grievance is mentioned, but please be it as fresh as possible. If it is not shared through direct witnessing, it is a virtual reality grudge that will ensnare you when you start to fetishise it. Had I accepted these stories as my part I could have puzzled myself with silly prejudices. These internalised stories of others are foggy glasses or mistakes to brain function. They steal some memory and befog clear thinking. Sasha Cohen mocked this culture of pride in Borat who was from the bestest country with the best history hating all the neighbour competing nations plus the Jews.... I hope he would be able to mock the fetishising past grievances (competing genocide by Ottoman Turkey is not recognized in Israel) or silly reclaiming the land based on 500+ years old records. We should prefer our personal generalisations based on experience. Mine is an autostop lakmus. Hitch hiking through the Europe in the 90ties I found out Germans are good people, kinder than most Europeans save the folks in Ireland, Norway and Iceland.
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